Of course my mom would ruin my prom night
I haven’t seen my brother in forever and now I remember why…we went to a family dinner and what did he do? Got drunk and now he’s being a jerk…
I have gotten a ton of peely skin and super chapped lips and its barely my fourth day using claravis. Oh and my face has been super red and itchy but I can’t touch it because it burns, also as of tonight my arms are getting patchy and I’m developing red rashes. That’s about it. Besides you know the breaking out.
It was so much better when my brother was home, my parents completely ignored me and focused on him. Now, they won’t stop yelling at me for everything. I don’t understand any of this at all, I just want to leave, please.
I’m so consumed with fear right now. I’m shaking and I can’t sleep. I never realized the war on drugs in Mexico directly affected me. I was researching it for one of my college essays and I found out so much and the pictures of some of the people. Over 60,000 deaths not even ten miles from my house. The worse part right now is going on in my dad’s city. My family sees all these gruesome things everyday. A few of them have come to live here to escape the violence, but not everyone can. It’s so sad that all this is going on so close to us, there’s 2000 miles of border, it’s all happening right across it and what are we doing about it? The fast and furious operation?! Just giving them MORE money and weapons? Libya is having a civil war and the US interferes right away, but we have had so many more casualties and so much more suffering for so long and they won’t even mention it? Foreign policy debate? Nothing! “Latin America is a ‘good opportunity’ lets move on to a new topic like the Middle East that hardly concerns us, possibility of nuclear Iran? Yah! Not Mexico”. I’d really like to think Obama is all good even Romney, but I honestly don’t think either one of them care about this war going on so close to home. It’s killing me knowing that a third world country is so close to us and what are we doing, what are they doing? Allowing some of the wealthier to move over so they can make money off of them not realizing they are going to go bankrupt here so quickly since they aren’t used to having to pay taxes not being able to do all they could before, all these new restrictions. I never realized my families financial problems and all this added stress these past few years was because of that. I never realized my family was in the center of it all. I never realized they’ve had encounters that scared them so much they moved to America, despite how much they loved their country, just to stay alive and not become a casualty like the thousands of others.
What makes me even more angry is that the ‘war on drugs’ here is just a bunch of stoners and irresponsible kids trying to legalize weed while there is an ACTUAL war going on so close to us about drugs.
Do you know how difficult it is to write a journal about how great and loving your family is when your mom is literally next door yelling at your brother?
So my other blog just reached 100 i know thats like NOTHING, but it makes me happy since i dont even know how i got ANY followers in the first place, i dont go out of my way or anything, so yah i feel like its a small accomplishment
I’m feeling even worse today.
I hung out with one of my friends today and we watched a few funny movies, laughed and all that, but I feel so detached from her, from everyone.
I honestly was more of myself with all those people I met at Stanford than I am with anyone here.
I never had these states of willowing If you may.
Wow Rah just texted me about pie.
This is exactly what I mean, if that was someone else I would honestly think it was irrelevant and a waste of time, but this just made me smile like an idiot.
This kid is great, too bad he lives all the way in California and I’m stuck here in Texas.
Stuff like this always happens to me.